XLVII.

he says it's in my eyes.
"oh shit" like radar —
as I smile with a heavy broom in hand.

walls echo hollow.
my steps slide to find where I am.
and you tell me, neverwhere —
I just wish I knew what it means.
don't know what meaning means.

feelings are the mainland,
and I am adrift.
the closest thing is this sense
that it is my friend,
not a beast.
and I would be scared if I knew how.

and you.
I know I love you
what that is
I miss you when I let myself
who am "I?"
sleeper sleeper sleeper

you.

I reach.
past you?
you are beside me.
you are inside me.

what does it mean.

I am wearing a dress
that says I am loved.
I sit beside a sister's painting
I cannot see.
dried flowers in the car
they are not real.

I forget who we are.