XXXIII.
(your love is indescribable. still.)
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I wanted to write it out, but not on a blog. Well, here goes. As if anyone would read this — (crowd laughs) —
THE EFFECT OF GAMMA RAYS ON INTERPLANETARY FRIENDSHIPS
It's about what happens when the contemplative Christian interacts with the contemplative non-Christian. They both know there is more to life and the human experience. Only one has the answer to those questions.
Answer. Singular form of the word. Because there is only one answer to the array of questions shared by the Christian and the non-Christian. The answer is a person, Jesus Christ. He is the universal answer, the always-enough. But part of this answer is that he keeps secrets in his kindness. The contemplative human mind hungers for more.
The contemplative non-Christian hungers for more first and Christ as an afterthought. The contemplative Christian hungers for Christ first and more as an afterthought.
But the "more" — it calls — this world is darkly broken, — Christ's request for faith sometimes seems to fall short. Scars weave different paths through the two hearts. The non-Christian wonders where to find true love. The Christian knows where ― she wonders how to take it in and how to give.
I have a friend, Sisyphus. There was a boy who sat behind us in film class. One Halloween, he decided to jump off of the tallest building on campus. It left the two of us with our own wounds ― mine, healing; his a question without so much as a punctuation mark.
He had known God, once. Then lost sight of him the way a distracted child loses sight of his father in a crowd. Where to find love, now, with all these paths leading different ways? In me, perhaps?
For me, it was ― how to absorb this unchanging Christ love still, how to trust it as steady — when my friend was so far from it — when my heart wanted to be an impenetrable stone — how to give the Christ love, when those whom I gave it to only fell for me, reminding me of my incapacity — or fell to their deaths?
The effect of gamma rays on interplanetary friendships can be summed up in this:
We live to learn love.
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I wanted to write it out, but not on a blog. Well, here goes. As if anyone would read this — (crowd laughs) —
THE EFFECT OF GAMMA RAYS ON INTERPLANETARY FRIENDSHIPS
It's about what happens when the contemplative Christian interacts with the contemplative non-Christian. They both know there is more to life and the human experience. Only one has the answer to those questions.
Answer. Singular form of the word. Because there is only one answer to the array of questions shared by the Christian and the non-Christian. The answer is a person, Jesus Christ. He is the universal answer, the always-enough. But part of this answer is that he keeps secrets in his kindness. The contemplative human mind hungers for more.
The contemplative non-Christian hungers for more first and Christ as an afterthought. The contemplative Christian hungers for Christ first and more as an afterthought.
But the "more" — it calls — this world is darkly broken, — Christ's request for faith sometimes seems to fall short. Scars weave different paths through the two hearts. The non-Christian wonders where to find true love. The Christian knows where ― she wonders how to take it in and how to give.
I have a friend, Sisyphus. There was a boy who sat behind us in film class. One Halloween, he decided to jump off of the tallest building on campus. It left the two of us with our own wounds ― mine, healing; his a question without so much as a punctuation mark.
He had known God, once. Then lost sight of him the way a distracted child loses sight of his father in a crowd. Where to find love, now, with all these paths leading different ways? In me, perhaps?
For me, it was ― how to absorb this unchanging Christ love still, how to trust it as steady — when my friend was so far from it — when my heart wanted to be an impenetrable stone — how to give the Christ love, when those whom I gave it to only fell for me, reminding me of my incapacity — or fell to their deaths?
The effect of gamma rays on interplanetary friendships can be summed up in this:
We live to learn love.
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